When your head and heart are at war,
The facts are there but feelings are stronger..
Who do you listen to?
You know something isnt right and you have to make a chance but your heart clings on to all those feelings and makes it impossible to let go.
Either way you are hurt...it hurts to hold on but you know it will hurt to let go and your terrified of the unknown.
The tears flow when you're alone because you dont want others to see how bad your hurting or how much it effects you.
You cling to the thing your holding onto because it makes you feel good and the dismiss all thoughts of letting it go, you cant bare it.
Each path is uncertain but you spend your time, hoping and praying for a miracle even when the obvious thing to do is staring you right in the face. You refuse to give up the fight because of how it makes you feel.
Deep down, you know the painful truth but you live in denial, you try not to think about it too much but inside you know its killing you, driving you insane..but yet you cannot bare to let go.
Why oh why is the obvious so hard accept?
As the song goes... 'You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts, And lies worse...' (James Morrison &Nelly Furtado, 2008).
Too relatable in situations likes these...
It's a tough call to make, it feels like you're standing in front of two paths that are always side by side and you dont know which one to take. You cant see ahead on either one and both are bumpy with uncertainty, filled with ups and downs.
Things feel complicated and your filled with conflict and there is no easy option out of it.. but you know sooner or later , you have to make that tough call... but when? And how?